InnerDance is an experience where you go into altered states of consciousness in order to access your own being, bringing up certain dynamics in your own sense of self and body, that you may not be aware of.
Here’s a personal account of what I went through during an InnerDance journey in Koh Phangan, Samma Karuna. This differs for everyone.
How an InnerDance journey starts
Held in their Awakening Hall, there was one facilitator and his two assistants during this session, along with singing bowls and other musical instruments.
After an introduction by the facilitator and his two assistants, we’re all told to lie down on a yoga mat with our heads resting on a soft pillow, eyes closed, feet almost shoulder width apart with arms beside you. You can choose to get a blanket to cover you if you think you’ll feel cold.
To just immerse yourself in the journey that they’re going to bring you on. Now this differs for everyone. It’s an inner dance, to become aware of you, not others around you. I’m going to focus on what my inner dance journey was and not that of others that happened during the session. It was quite.. intense for them.
Musical Soundscapes
Music was being played. Ranging from slow to deep to intense. Then with layered tracks playing at the same time. And on top of that, singing bowls and other instruments that the facilitators were playing on site. All to expand or alter your state of consciousness.
To get a feel of what sort of music is being played, a similar base music that was played throughout is the Spotify playlist above. Imagine layering singing bowls and other instruments on top of this kind of music that at times were playing simultaneous tracks.
Healed and Aware. Or so I thought..
I thought I’ve healed what I needed to heal and am aware of what I ‘lack’. At first everything felt normal. Feelings of contentment, satisfaction, just peace. At various moments just smiles. Then imagery from a community of war bonnet dressed indigenous people dancing around a bonfire. In some sort of celebration, just being around their people. Smiles and laughter.
After what felt like forever, he told us to now focus on our heart chakra. So I did. But this is when it immediately hit me. Eyes were still closed, but 3 tears came down, wasn’t crying but tearing. Think the facilitators saw almost immediately even though it was a group of around 20. One was doing reiki or energy balance over my heart chakra, then solar plexus, then heart again. Then to my crown. At one point my left shoulder, though I’m not sure why. Another facilitator was on my foot, to release or clear stagnant and negative energy from the body, then to the other foot to ground and balance again. Whatever they did, things seem balanced after.
For the remaining 20 minutes or so, it was normal. But upon slowly ‘waking up’, I noticed my body being stiff, locked, like I wasn’t fully back in my body yet and it took a while to be able to move. Or maybe you could also argue that it’s cause I haven’t moved my body for 90 minutes.
Realising the experience of an InnerDance wasn’t exactly new to me, especially since it’s rather similar to shamanic journeys that I’ve been doing by myself. But compared to shamanic journeys, this felt more self focused, really an Inner Dance rather than journeying. Alas it’s the reiki part that was interesting.
Why was the heart chakra a trigger point for me?
I have a scorpio moon in my 1st house. In traditional astrology, it’s in a fall placement, not exactly comfortable being in this sign. In evolutionary astrology, it’s linked to my skipped steps, of which I need to relive certain dynamics of being open and free and child like. Loving of everything and everyone. To creatively actualise myself in the context of society. (Leo South Node and Leo Sun in the 10th) In order to simultaneously become emotionally secure within myself in my own unique way. And what am I doing? Astrology. Even though it’s not considered a traditional path for a career especially as a Singaporean. But in this way I’m ‘creatively actualising myself in the context of society’. Not that I previously wasn’t, since I was a designer. But when you bring in the complexities of the phases in one’s life, for the first 30 or so years i was in my Leo Sun in 10th House phase, and I’m now in my Jupiter in Cancer in 9th House phase. So you can definitely see why it’s astrology instead of design now.
Heart chakras when blocked or imbalanced speak of difficulty with relationships, trust, intimacy and affection. Emotionally guarded. All of which is also speaking of a scorpio moon.
So I was aware of it, and I knew of it especially when he told us to focus on our heart chakra. The only thing I wasn’t aware of was the tearing part, being almost involuntarily, spontaneously. It could just be remnant energies that I was still carrying thus not intense.
Who should try InnerDance?
I’d recommend InnerDance to people who want to become self aware. Especially ones who aren’t able to tap into themself, feeling a disconnection between their physical reality and soul. Wanting to become more aware of what’s going on inside of yourself that you may or may not be aware of.
For those with Pluto conjunct their rising/ascendant or with Pluto sextile/trine Mars, it may not be as intense since you’re already aware of a lot of things in your life, but it’s a good reminder of your self.
This might be very good for those with Pluto averse/inconjunct their ascendant and Pluto/Mars opposition or square. Why do I make this connection? In evolutionary astrology, Pluto represents your soul, Mars is the lower octave of Pluto, a separating desire from your soul. So when you can see the relevance between the experience of an InnerDance as well as your own natal placement of Pluto and Mars, you can sort of get an understanding of whether or not an InnerDance journey will be intense or helpful for you or not.
It’s also good to just be reminded of your ‘self’ every once in a while, even to those that are consciousor already self-aware.
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