Spiritual awakening seems very ‘woo-woo’ but for me, it really means the start of questioning things beyond the physical. Physical as in physical reality that we’re living in, spiritual as in things that you can’t really see but just ‘know’.
There are many different ways to tell if you’ve awakened. But you’ll definitely know when you have. What I’m describing is a personal account of events and things that have occurred, leading to my own spiritual awakening. It’s within all of us. Some may experience it early, some nearing their passing, but some maybe not at all.
My spiritual awakening was gradual, but I never understood or acknowledged the signs until later in my 30s. Apart from early societal conditioning, environmental upbringing and social connections, it truly started within.
Recurring Dreams
Early dreams before I was 10 years old, of what I believe was my past life or what I do ‘up there’.
There was an understanding (or lack of), that what I did ‘up there’ was just one portion of how they work, as a system. I won’t go into specifics or the scenario, but there wasn’t an ego within me. I just knew what I was there to do and did it. There wasn’t a need to ‘earn more money’ or ‘to shine brighter than others’, let alone ‘put others down’.
From what I can remember, or maybe it was just that scenario, there isn’t even a thing called money. And yet here we are on this physical earth so fixated on that. But that’s another topic for another day. I can still play back what the scenario was, going back into that state and seeing what was going on. Then, I never really thought much of it other than it just being a dream.
Other dreams of deaths, cemeteries, made me question mortality and life after death. But I was still too young to realise what that exactly meant and could only ponder on the what-ifs.
You could say dreams are just dreams, with some saying there are certain meanings behind dreams like free-falling, losing teeth or dreaming about death. But what if I told you what I dreamt of was of those, but more? With storylines, realising that I’ve been here before and knowing what plays out and exactly when my dream will end? And of scenarios that no dream interpretation has touched on?
Is it just a dream then or subconscious memories of lives lived or of unconscious soul level prodding?
Visitation Dreams
Then there are ‘dreams’ of visits from friendly and non-friendly entities which felt very real. It was as if I was in a dream and non-dream state, the limbo between conscious and unconscious. It felt more physical, happening while I’m currently living and breathing on this earth, than of a mental dream state.
Other Selves or Past Lives?
There are also dreams (which are still happening) where it feels like they were other versions of me, or my self. Possibly in another timeline, or past selves, as I can still remember the different scenarios, especially the ones which made me think ‘that is something we/I won’t encounter in this time period’. It wasn’t of this timeline with the mechanics/scenarios/objects involved.
Lucid Dreams
Other dreams of being lucid, realising everything was just a dream. But upon realising, I ‘jumped’ into another dream. Still, realising it’s just a dream, I ‘jumped’ again. The last one kept me in check as it felt as though I couldn’t wake up. This happened 2-3 times before I woke up from my bed, but then still, realising it’s just a dream and panicked. That panic feeling then woke me up in the physical.
Astrology Placements that suggest an unconscious soul operating level
Apart from dreams, which in astrology is very much a Neptunian energy, of which mine is making aspects to 5 other planets and Chiron, it could be my Scorpio elements (rising, moon, Pluto) that has me questioning the meaning of life since young.
Always an observer, more than a participant of life. Psychoanalysing people, their actions and psychological dynamics. Their behaviours and reactions to particular situations. Understanding human nature. With my Leo sun squaring my scorpio elements, not identifying with a need to ‘shine’ but more so towards understanding the meaning of physical life with things ‘they’ are not telling us.
Upon death, are we still able to feel the emotions we are currently feeling now, or even sleep/eat/walk/feel etc.? That there has to be more to life than just this basic cycle that we’re conditioned to living. You study, work, get married, have kids and pass. What then?
What happens after you pass? And what if all you’ve been doing is to be stuck in that wheel of karma that your parents have passed on to you, then you to your kids, apart from your own soul karma?
What if we are conditioned to follow this cycle in order to be deemed successful by people who are following the consensus, who are in turn controlled and conditioned by society to be ‘functioning human beings’? And the ‘outliers or failures’ are the ones who have different priorities than that of the 70-75% of the human population, operating on the herd state of physical reality, who have forgotten who they truly are, in order to ‘function well’ on this physical?
Learnt the Answers
I have learnt answers to my questions and sadly, most breathing, living here don’t think about it. Or if they do, they barely scratch the surface of the underlying meaning behind why they are here on this earth and who they truly are, and I’m not just talking about psychological or physical dynamics.
While spiritual enlightenment seems to be an ongoing process which will take time, or has me bound into a lifelong ‘student’, it has made me conscious of my unconscious, aware of also the collective unconscious.
I dare say I have awakened, but pretty sure there’s more to enlightenment. It’s also evident that most of us are unconscious, operating on just earthly memories of one’s current lived past, and of material yearns and hopes of one’s future, with the veil still covering our ‘sight’.
Most are not aware of the triad needed in one, to truly feel like you’re alive and not just surviving in this cycle of life. My advice? Question everything.
These were all just the start of my spiritual awakening journey. But awareness of these experiences then transitioned me into my evolutionary purpose and has pushed me into further events relating to what’s termed ego death and kundalini awakening.
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